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edicius thinking?

Mon Mar 16, 2009, 11:17 PM
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: none
  • Reading: Megatokyo
  • Watching: welcome to the NHK
I don't even know why the hell, Im thinking of these thoughts but it keeps popping up every once in a while.

Im feeling that if this world is gonna just keep giving me struggle for the hell of it, then why bother living? Why should I stay here, if people are not even hopeful of their own survival. Almost every religion talks about the destruction of mankind. And the fanatics look forward to it. Why? Why do people continue to talk about how were all gonna die, and be wiped out.

If Dieing is the only way to open the door to another world, in another dimension, I guess I look forward to it.

But why should I wait until some fatal disease hit me. Or somebody shoot me? Why should I wait for all those surprising scenarios?

I don't know, I guess I keep hoping and looking, but I could never find anybody to keep me alive in a sense. Nobody knows how I feel, and what kind of thoughts sweep my mind from time to time. I keep the fake laughs and smiles going. The jokes, all bullshit.

Im feeling a bit of it.

Never though these thoughts would ever flood my mind.
I can tear.

But cannot cry..

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=JammerLea Mar 17, 2009, 8:00:09 AM
Why bother living? I could give you many reasons...

As for religion focusing on the end times... they're silly. Looking forward to it is one thing, but leaving people hopeless is bad.

Life is a blessing. Yes, it gets everyone down from time-to-time. Yes it's hard. But I can't imagine giving it up when there's still so much I want to do, and still so many people here that I love.

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~ZinkyMomo Mar 17, 2009, 1:16:21 PM
What's to say that the world after death is any better than this world?

Life is about the journey, not what happens at the end. I think it's okay to look forward to the world after death, but you should make the most of this world while you can.

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~MRGhoastKoast Mar 20, 2009, 10:38:47 AM
you'r right. Sorry for being so emo, and down there. That was some strange day. I just needed to write what I was feeling at that time, beuase it was eating me.

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:skullbones:"we are the remnant
we the remnant will save us of all
we are the faithful
we the faithful will save us of all":skullbones:
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~MRGhoastKoast Mar 20, 2009, 10:41:14 AM
True..

Sorry if I worried you. Your right . Who knows if the next life is any better than this one. Anyway I was feeling down that night I wrote this. You know, I just needed to write my pain out on something. And this was et.

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:skullbones:"we are the remnant
we the remnant will save us of all
we are the faithful
we the faithful will save us of all":skullbones:
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=JammerLea Mar 20, 2009, 2:02:22 PM
Hey, don't worry about it. I think everyone feels kind of like that at some point. That's why we've got friends to help us. :hug:

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Mood: Delighted ~MRGhoastKoast Mar 21, 2009, 9:33:39 PM
Thank you Jammer. That means a lot you know. ^^

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:skullbones:"we are the remnant
we the remnant will save us of all
we are the faithful
we the faithful will save us of all":skullbones:
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~ZinkyMomo Mar 23, 2009, 10:23:10 PM
It's okay~. Everybody had crappy days and it's better to write things down instead of keeping them bottled up. And like Jammer said, that's what friends are for. :hug:

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